The Stages of Leaving Home As Told By Titus Andromedon
Adulting. I never could have imagined how crazy the emotions of becoming a full blown adult would throw me off. From the nerves of graduating from college to maintaining this blog while having a full-time job, it's been a rollercoaster. As you know, Sabine and I moved to New York and finally found the perfect apartment, but while it's so exciting, there's something about it that seems so final about this transition phase. I know there's more to go, but officially leaving home has been a weird mix of emotions for me. Everyone has a different experience when it comes to moving out- some are bouncing off the walls with happiness and some are neutral about it- but here's a list of my PERSONAL experience with leaving home as told by Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt's Titus Adromedon, because why not?!
Graduating was one thing, but having to leave a place that I was so comfortable in made me incredibly nervous. The excitement of starting a new journey was completely overpowered by the fear of having to leave my place of safety. I was surrounded by loved ones all the time and I would be leaving my dog behind (I'm OBSESSED with my dog!). And even though Sabine and I were moving together, not having the full family unit was beyond terrifying to me, but I knew it had to be done.
Once I made the big move, the nerves slowly turned into me being content. I wasn't excited about being away from home, but I also wasn't excited to be in New York. I was in a comfortably uncomfortable in between. Let the nervous dancing begin.
I started to feel excited when I got settled into New York. Once I stopped sulking and went out to explore my new city, I started to feel more at peace with not being in what I considered to be my safety net for so long. While there are days I long to be at home, it's certainly not to the same degree as it was before. I started to own the fact that this experience would be what I made it. Therefore, "I am a star!"
It took some time, but I finally accepted the fact that this is all just a part of life. I can't stay at home forever and I have to embrace what will come next no matter how scary it may seem. I will always have my family's home, but it's time for me to explore what's out there and I'm ready. This time, I let the happy dancing begin.